Strange Huh?

Almost 2 in the morning, still not sleeping. Nothing so strange about it..happens to me all the time. Watched Break Ke Baad, ya same gheesa peeta story with a lil different spices in it. Honestly no comments about the movie..but the movie made me realize something.

Wouldn’t it have been nice, if our life was like a movie. The director would make someone fall in love with us, and then he would tell that person to not love us anymore..and then after a lil drama and all..make the same person realize that we are meant to be together..and then happily ever after. Therez a good news and a bad news..the bad news is life isn’t a movie, there is no director who shows us our way, nor is our life as perfect as a movie. Well the good news is..actually the bad news is the good news.

Our life is controlled by us and no other. Life is not scripted, it doesn’t last just 3 hrs. There is not always a happy ending..we don't necessarily end up with that one person we have always “wanted” to be with (wanted=we thought we wanted). The only thing thats common between a movie and our real life is..there is always THE AUDIENCE. 

The audience matters so much..to the movie that is.. coz thats how the movie will make money. However, my life is not gonna be a blockbuster or a flop by the comments, criticisms of the real life audiences. So guess what..Screw the Audience. I will do my best to make the best out of my life..for me being happy is the most important thing..and will do anything to make it happen. So for all the people who likes to talk crap about my life..too bad I don’t give a rats ass about what you gotta say.

Going back to the filmy world, you realize how most movies these days try to show us that if you been with one person for a long time, thats who you are meant to be with. Like.. you are made for each other and blah blah. Well thats all bullshit..like again, Real life is no movies. In real life, relationships do not last. If you been with one person and you end up with that person for the rest of your life thats good. But this happens with very few, what about the rest of us? Just coz our suppose-to-last-forever relationship didn't work, are we not worthy of love no more? Or if we fall in love again, is our love not true love just coz its not the first love? Whats funny is sometimes we even tend to think that we have lost “the meant to be one” and now we cant fall in love again. Trust me, there is no such thing. Our mind is sometimes highly influenced by bollywood movies. 

Cutting the crap..the point is, its okay if relationships didn't work. It is not at all necessary that there is just one and only. We got to do the best we can though. In a relationship we have to do our best to make it last forever. But, If for any reason its not working out..we have the right to step out of it and seek our happiness somewhere else. The most important obligation we have is to ourself, and to make oneself happy is the utmost priority. I know sometimes its hard, but what you want is what you get. Its weird how some people kill their love with that one person. Love does not die with one person, love is inside us. No matter how many relationships fail, not giving up in Love is important. 

Love is associated with heart and its funny how  we tend to use our head the most. We have so many things to think of, what will others say if I break up? What if I dont find someone else? What if this is my destiny? What if I am left alone? so many unncessary what ifs..and just by the grace of god if we happen to come out of this what ifs, there is something else we start  worrying about.

We are again worried about being in love with that perfect guy. Does he have a good job? Does he have a perfect smile? Does he have a huge bank balance? Does he have a good personality? Does he speak good english? Is he this ? Is he that? How many questions on the list does a guy have to answer before I can fall in love with him? I totally understand why we worry so much. We all want secure future, we have a society to keep up with and etc etc. But is there a slightest chance that maybe our previous relationships didn't  work just coz we used our head too much?

Can we once fall in love just for the sake of love. Is it not okay to love someone without a single check mark on the list? Is it not okay to simply fall in love with the way he smiles? When he looks at you and you feel like you are the whole world to him, is this not love? Or simply that wake up call you get, every single morning..that one call that brightens the rest of your day. Is this not enough to fall in love? And if I do fall in love, why do we have to expect it to last forever? Why is not okay to just love..simply fall in love? 

Yes, this is all that I could think of after watching Break ke Baad for 3 hrs. My thoughts are not quite relevant to the movie. Whatever I have wrote might make no sense to some, some might feel weird. I still have no comments on the movie..but ya I do love the way it made me think and write, strange huh? 

Nisha

12/13/2010