Decision Unwanted

Times, those spend together,
I miss them, I’ll cherish forever.
Home away from home,
Family of my own,
One big family, we said,
At least that’s what I felt.

Days after days, one occasion then another,
We missed nothing; we were there for each other.
I was happy, very happy indeed,
They became part of me, kind of my need.

Stupid jokes of me they would make
Sometimes it was hard to take,
However, more fun and happiness we shared,
And the jokes were many ways to show they cared.

I don’t understand how I forgot,
It will always last I had thought,
I should have realized, it’s the same game,
That time keeps playing on me again and again.
Joys and happiness, it brings in my life,
Makes me strong, helps me survive.
Takes me to the heights,
And everything seems bright.
Finally, I would feel I had it all,
Just to realize in a trap I had fall.
One more time, I have had believed,
Just to add a number, to the count I have been deceived.

Shared some feelings, some joys, some pains,
Friendly talks they were, nothing else I ever intend.
I always thought, he was just a friend,
Some wrong messages, I might have sent.
The love, the care, the feelings I had shown,
Created a problem, of which I was unknown.
Finally, when I realize,
I had even paid the price.
This is how much, was my cost,
A very dear friend I had lost.

I still explained and tried to make things better,
Drama wouldn’t stop, one after another.
It’s not just one problem, that was the reason,
It’s hard to explain, there were so much confusions.

I did make a mistake, I can’t lie
I can’t disclose, can’t say why,
I feel bad; to forget I try,
Should have known, it would make me cry.

Too hard, too much was it to handle,
I gave up, didn’t see any way to untangle.
I am sorry for the loss, but I had no option,
My fate was the one, to make my decision.

Now, I look back and I remember
The times that were spend together,
The lake, the barbeque, those cozy meals,
I wonder if the pain will ever heal.
No matter how hard, time plays its part,
I will relish the moments, always deep in my heart.


Nisha
10/12/08