Cold Summer

Middle of the night she wakes up

something inside her aches..

the cold makes her heart shiver..

the ice  in her  eyes breaks.

The arms that held her is there no more

The hot air cant heal the heart thats sore.

Its a three digit weather says the informer..

Only she can feel the coldness of this summer. 

If only this heat could melt the heart..

or the coldness would freeze those tears..

if only the body would reject the pain

or the eyes didn’t cry every now and then.

She wish to feel the warmth in the air..

if only she could forget the one who don’t care..

Its a three digit weather says the informer

Only she can feel the coldness of this summer.

Nisha 

08/23/2011

08/21/2011

I was sitting at a cafe chatting with couple of my friends when something across the street caught my eyes. The trees that were covered with tiny christmas lights gave a holiday and a beautiful feeling on the other side of the street, so was I thinking until I realized I was sitting right below one of those trees on this side of the street as well. :)

There is a crime..the evidences are invisible!!

Some are arrested for murders. Some are arrested for physically harming others. Some even get arrested for trying to kill themselves. The world has made a law, a law that protects an individual from getting harmed by another individual. There are every kind of laws and regulations to protect physical and visible pain. Why is there no law for those invisible pains? If someone breaks your leg, they go to jail. If someone breaks your heart they get away with it..I thought heart values more then a leg...If we compare the pain, the broken heart bears much more and longer pain then a broken leg does. There are rules and regulations of all kind. Why is there no rules for breaking someone’s heart, for making someone cry, for deceiving, for lying. Since there is no rules, perhaps its ok to do such things. Do people really have the right to break others hurt? To pain them, to make them miserable? And then to leave, Just leave?

Its a strange world we live in. If you have a broken leg, you call 911. You can go see a doctor, who can help you. You can see the broken leg, so there are many measures you can take. But if you have a broken heart, there is no one you can call, no one who can come and help, no one who can heal the pain. There is no doctor who can fix it. Your heart can cry and bleed all that it wants, there aint nothing you can do coz you just cant see it. Since everything that can be seen and touched has more value then anything else. How nice would it be, if anything unseen didn’t exist at all. There would be no pain. 

Why do people go through the pain they don’t deserve? There are all sorts of tools that answers every kind of questions, however there aint no tool that will answer my question. I wonder sometime, if there was actually a law that would punish people for breaking hearts and hurting others, many hearts would probably be alive today. Its the good heart that usually gets hurt, its the bad people who always does wrong. I think people are what they are, they dont have to try hard to be bad or good. Are we been wrong all this time? Is this a world of evil? What if being good is actually a bad thing? Can good still try and be bad? I actually have an answer to this. And the answer is “No”. A good can be hurt million times, a good can cry hundred of rivers, yet a good can never be bad. But I still wonder, Is there a 911 that handles a broken heart case? If evidences are required, evidences do exist. Its just that they are Invisible.


Nisha
08/07/2011

When...

When nothing is in place

and life’s a mess..

When you cry all night 

and no one cares.

When good is all you do

and bad is what u get in return

When love is what u shower

and betrayal is what you get in return.

How do you still smile?

How do you still hold on?

Where do you start again?

how do one move on?

When you love your dreams

and you believe in them

When hope is all you have

and you hold tight on them.

When dreams turn into reality

When happiness come your way..

When love finally has a face..

and when angel has come to stay.

How do you not smile?

How do you not hold on?

How do you not wanna start?

why would one not move on?

When reality was actually a nightmare

When happiness was full of lies

When love had two faces..

When angel was actually a satan in disguise.

How do you still smile?

How do you still hold on?

Where do you start again?

Someone tell me, how do one move on???

Nisha 

07/18/2011

P.S Many times when you are true and honest you have to come across satan and evils. The satan tries to hurt you and stray you so that you lose your hope and you lose your belief. They say, god puts them on most trials whom he loves the most. No matter how much the devil try to pain you.. never lose hope. You got to believe, its the satan’s job to do wrong..if you lose hope the satan wins. What will happen to the evil person is in God’s will. But yes believe in your hope and believe in your god, the satan can do as much harm as he can..but he can never be greater than your hope, your believe and your god. 

A Beautiful Morning!!

It's a beautiful morning,

and I wanna smile again.

Its a brand new morning 

and I wanna fall in love again.

Intentional or unintentional 

the damage has been done.

Apologies ain't no good..

Coz the pain can’t be undone.

It’s a beautiful morning 

and you wonder,

if you will see me again,

It’s a brand new morning  

and you wonder, 

If we can start all over again.

To get what you want,

You have to know what you want.

your heart's still confused mi amor..

and your past seem to still haunt.

Maybe one beautiful morning..

You'll remember it all again..

Maybe one brand new morning..

you will read the "contract" again.

Its a beautiful morning,

and I wanna enjoy it again.

Forget about the pain..

and smile all over again.

Nisha

06/18/2011

Saath!!

Ankh bhar aai hain aaj,

kal muskurana bhi hoga..

baris ka samaa hain aaj..

kal suraj ka aana hoga.

zindagi mili hai tumhe..

isko ji kar dekho..

kabhi khusi milegi tumhe..

kabhi dukhka samna hoga.

kal jo hasin pal bitaye they saath

unko yaad karke thoda muskurado

kasam hain mujhe tumhare pyar ki.... 

woh din ayenge fir, khusiyo ka firse bahar hoga.

Kal jo pyarse thaama thaa haat..

diya tha maine tumhe apna saath.

wohi mohabbatse aaj thamo mera haat..

Zindagi bharka saath hamaro hoga.

Nisha

05/14/2011

P.S Language is just a way to express what you feel. 

Timro Yaad

Timro yaad ma jaba yo man attincha.. 

biteka ti pal samjhadai 

yo maan sambhalincha.

ti chyan haru samjhadai din bitai dinechu...

feri milan ko aashama jivan bitai dinechu.

saathma chainau timi kasari ma bhanu..

jata herchu tetai ma timi dekhdachu.

ek sparsh ko chahana jaba yo maan gardacha...

samjhadai ti din haru yo maan sambhalincha.

timro mayalai maya gardai ma din bitai dinechu..

feri milan ko aashma jivan biatai dinechu.

Nisha

01/2011

P.S trying new things..

Unintentionally in Love

It could have been your smile,

or maybe the way you talk..

perhaps your long beautiful hair..

or was it our first walk?

I don’t know if it was at first sight..

but I swear everything seemed so right.

I wonder if you felt the same way too..

but baby I unintentionally fell in love with you.

The first time we met..I couldn’t stop talking..

then it was you..I was always thinking.

I wanted to see you every now and then..

I was forgetting the whole world..perhaps was going insane.

It seemed like it was heaven on earth..

U and me forever I had thought.

Until one day there was a call late night..

then I realized there was already a woman in my life.

Was it the way we laughed together..

everything seemed like it would last forever.

maybe it was our first rain we danced to..

How unintentionally I fell in love with you?

I was scared to hurt you..

I was scared to lose you..

..then I didn’t know how to tell you..

and I ended up lying to you.

baby I swear I never meant it this way to be..

I forgot it was NOT just you and me.

She was in my life prior to you..

I couldn’t tell you, 

coz unintentionally I fell in love with you.

Things were so beautiful between U and I..

everything has changed because of my lie..

now you know everything about her..

I don’t know what all I can say sorry for.

I thought I would rather lie than to hurt you..

My lies could kill you, I never knew.

Everything is a mess now..I don’t know what to do..
I wish I hadn’t unintentionally fell in love with you.

Nisha

05/14/2011

P.S Usually what “I” feel is what I write. But sometimes, I try to portray other’s feelings in my words. This poem is one of those effort. 

Simple Joys of Life!!!

As I was going through my birthday wishes on my “wall”, I was thinking, if technology has brought the world together or has started another world of its own. Not that I am complaining, I feel very special to read those birthday messages from so many people all around the world, however I realized that I used to get more personal calls/txts before the “world of Facebook” existed. I can’t lie, I was kind of missing those personal gestures and was only about to feel low, and my phone went off. I got a call all the way from Nepal, from this friend of mine, I’ve known for almost 12 yrs. now. We don’t stay connected like in everyday basis, but we still are in touch. A big smile on my face ended the call. After that, calls from few close friends followed. I guess, everyone have these kind of people in their lives, who just knows how to make you feel special in a very ordinary way. Internet has obviously brought the world closer and made connection easier, but it feels so much better when someone still calls. Calling seems old school now, since everything can be done through txt or chat or just by simply writing on the wall. Its amazing how simple things can add so much joy in our life. I am always asked what I want for my birthday and today I know exactly what I want. These people, who makes me experience “simple joys of life”, I want them in my life forever. 

(p.s. This doesn’t mean I don’t want gifts...I still want gifts as well :D) 

You all know who you are and I love you all.

Nisha

03/12/2011

The Radio

Its cold and its all white,

Im trying some song to write.

Cant find the words, under the snow

seems the lyrics have hide.

You is all I can think of,

you have my mind occupied.

Perhaps there is a way 

to turn the clock around.

to the time back, where 

I don’t have to hear this sound.

This sound I hear, is the sound of nothing

“you are not around” 

the emptiness is screaming.

You will keep me warm, 

you will keep me safe..

so much you will do..

there were promises you made.

In my hands, In my arms

In my soul, I feel cold.

love has been traded perhaps
promises have been sold.

Every moment of everyday

I wait for you to come this way.

I wish the radio would go off again..

i wish you would wake me up again.

for the old time’s sake i shall still wait..

I just hope you’ll be back before its too late.

Nisha

02/03/2011